My word for 2013 is Focus. Throughout the year I will be sharing ways I am learning to Focus my life and invest in the things that mean the most to me.
Toward the end of last year I began to take stock of my commitments. I realized that I had far too many irons in the fire and had spread myself too thin. My earnest desire to get involved in good projects had turned my schedule upside down and my health, my sleep, and my obligations were all suffering as a result. I realized I could not keep plugging away at the status quo.
My first reaction was to buckle down and try to work hard at all of those things. That was about as successful as trying to perform surgery on yourself. It took a fortnight to realize that this was only exacerbating the problem. Rather than alleviating the stress of too many commitments, I was increasing the stress and energy required for each one to succeed.
I had fallen into commitment quicksand. I kept struggling and working to try to get out of the mess I had created, digging more frantically and stressing out but ultimately making the problem worse.
I don’t like to quit. The competitive spirit in me insisted that quitting means being defeated, and surely I could not admit defeat! But with two offices full of work and a constant feeling of exhaustion, I had to pull the plug on a few things. It was painful. I probably let some people down. But at the rate I was going, my overloaded schedule was going to produce less-than-stellar work for all involved. So I took that step back, quit a few things and am starting to find some sanity again.
What about you? Are you having to take stock and cut things out?